Paper Birds.....and a few other things xx

On Thursday i saw a devised piece by Paper Birds who i have always wanted to see! There piece provoked the question 'Why do we drink?'. This makes me question myself? I have never been a big drinker, watching the piece they touch a few times on those 18 year old Uni girl student who party hard.....i never did that. Sometime i feel i missed out, maybe there's something in going through those years, but mostly i am glad i just never have had to suffer the hang over! Now i at Uni at the age of 20, drinking is something i do once a week if i have the time! But why do we do it? We go out to a bar, or with the girls and we drink....because society says that's what Western society does? Or because we like to let go? Feel less self conscious? Release any inhibitions? Sometime i want to drink to forget, be distracted from those voices in my head. The ones that constantly wonder, hope & dream that i wont be alone much longer...or that i'll figure out these crazy plans in my head and one day they'll just form or i'll know!

This week my friend have got me watching One Born Every Minute! Something i never thought i'd watch because of the screaming and the painfulness of birth, but i have to say it is like that but what you forget is the ending, the part that you have waited 50 minutes for!! When a new born baby is handed to its mother for the first time, their eyes meet and the love that is share, and we get to watch that. How amazing it must be in those fleeting seconds to be a mid wife!

This week i have really missed my friends back at home! Em got a new job which i am so excited about, i spoke to Will today, not sure how the others are but they seem fine from facebook, i think next week i should aim to call them even if its brief. I hate the idea that i am not making enough of an effort, but i suppose i have to know that we all have separate lives and now come together only a few holidays in the year....but i need to make them count, i love them all so much. I miss them constantly when i miss home, their part of a huge process i went through when i left Plymouth at 16, they took me in and be-friended me when no one else did :)

Miss Mum & Dad at the moment its week 5 of Uni next week and it has gone so fast! We will be half way, so i am glad i will be seeing the parents on Wednesday in London even if it is only brief and Dad is working!

 

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