You Are Good x

Today as i was walking to the station i realized something. There is one person i haven't spoken to about any of the situations i am in at the moment and the life choices and decisions i am making. GOD. If you'd have meet me 4 years ago He would be the first person i would turn to....not the last. But we change we grow, Gods is always in my heart just not at the forefront and sometimes we need waking to that fact. Talking to Him gives me so much comfort. And when i see my life i always think of this.......


'Although I don't know what the future holds, I know who holds my future.' Deuteronomy 1:29-30 


I am trying a new church on Sunday before I leave for home for the holidays, seems odd i know but i feel that right now God is saying Go, see me with others. Don't see hard times as a full stop but simply a comma. I decided how the rest of my sentence will run. 


Listening to itunes on shuffle (i am such a musical theatre geek i tell you!) and Kelly Clarksons 'You Found Me' has just come on.....


'You found me when no one else was looking' When i first became a Christian this is how i felt. I know i am different and changed now within my personality but my beliefs are still the same even if sometimes I dont show it 


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Wise Words from a Wise Women......x

'In what ever you chose, chose with your heart, your will. Not because you are


told. Never be sorry, no regrets, live with your heart and how can any choice 


than be the wrong one if taken by your heart (and a little bit of mind).'


I once read 'What is easy isn't always right and what is right isn't always easy.' 


If this is your life ......... my life it wasn't meant to be easy. If it was what would become of the world, of our being. Would we a be content and happy? 


Would we never strive for anything therefore not making the great discoveries and journeys our world has been on.......maybe, maybe not. 


What i do know is that each person we meet, each word we speak, each breath we take, each step we take effects us. We are meant to strive, to fail, to achieve, to struggle, feel week, feel alone. Because one day you might look back and see you have moved on from feeling one of these things but it was the journey that helped more than ever. We will always battle within ourselves after all we are only human. 

 x

Christmas has arrived!

So Christmas arrived a while ago in Birmingham but i refused to indulge in it seen as it was the beginning of November...... but December will be upon us in a few short days so i felt the need to start to allow the festive spirit to slowly enter my blood stream! I spent a weekend with a friend and went around the winter wonderland and i hit John Lewis for some shopping and it was lovely. Busy, hectic but i always like shopping for others (even though i am uba bad at it!) as i like seeing there guessing faces on Christmas Day and i know my mum will love her present this year. There are so many good websites that i love flicking through to find good ideas or gifts from but this one i really like www.notonthehighstreet.com Does what it says on the tin really!
This weekend i also saw my God Daughter and watched the Panto with her and her family and it has to be the best way to watch an interactive show! She and her siblings were lit up constantly joining in booing and clapping. They are so amazing, Theatre is so amazing that it can do that. At such a young age.

Spread the Joy this week, sometimes when we look hard and close we realize we have a lot more to be thankful of than we thought we did.

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Fear Habits......

Fear. Its an odd word. What do you fear most in the world some asks? Well the depends on whether you mean literally or emotionally or many other llys. I used to hate the dark when i was a child. The landing light was always on and my door ajar. I used to fear bullies at school or not fitting in somewhere. When i moved at the age of 16 i feared rejection by my peers but also feared rejection by the people i had moved away from. I think its safe to say that many women fear they'll never fall in love and get blissful married. I made a list once and ever now and again i look and ponder add and take away. But when i look back i see that some dreams that i was scared of not achieving have been achieve in a totally different way or maybe the dreams changed. Because i have.

One  of my biggest dreams from being young was for my family to see me be professionally paid on London's West End. For the time being my dream has altered although this would be great i have more passion than ever to facilitate create work with and for people who cant access that 'West End' so many aspire to be on.

I love this view, I took this photo in 2008 with my new camera then. IT looks so calm. I like calm x

My Head......x

Done. I stopped seeing him. Head hurts, pride hurts, want to cry with hurt but can't seem to find tears........

Close chapter. Time to write a new one. New Chapter

Photos xxxx

Some pictures i wanted to share............. This is Me, Marieke, Linda & Tricia. They were my nearest and dearest during my gap year adventures in South Africa. We were bored one night to took lots of funny photos. I miss them lots xx This is a photo of a Bench in South Africa, i used to run past this every so often or take the kids for walks to play. But mostly we used it to reflect on life or happenings. To talk to God. I feel its a place where i enjoyed the simpleness of life in Africa. The easy loving ways we lived by xx

A Night Has A Thousand Eyes

I found this poem when doing some research for Dance Theatre and i want to record it so i can use it again for something one day ENJOY x

A Night Has A Thousand Eyes
And The Days But One;
Yet The Light Of The Bright World Dies
With The Dying Of The Sun.

The Mind Has A Thousand Eyes,
And The Heart But One;
Yet The Light Of The Whole Life Dies,
When Love Is Done.

Francis William Bourdillion

Through my eyes x

Today i realized that Drama School is going to be where i meet some of the most amazing people who will be in my life for what i hope is a LONG time. I have only known people 9 weeks and i feeling like i have known them a lifetime. You spend so much time together they know things about me and my life and family that i wouldn't tell some people ever. One person in particular has mad me realize how closed off my life was before Uni. Not in a bad way and especially NOTHING to do with my friends at Home. But more to do with growing up when it    comes to relationships and love. I think i have fairy tales running around my head and am now coming to terms with the fact that they aren't realistic or true. We can have fairy tales but they happen and we realize them then; we cant manufacture them because we will be constantly disappointed.

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